Since I was little, I had this strong phobia for both heights and depths. Jesus knows that unlike the woman at the well, He is not likely to find me at the well, because I would make every excuse that would excuse me from drawing from the well at my street in the Coal City let alone drawing from the well of living water- that is if well encounters or ‘being at the right place at the right time’ was a criterion for receiving the promised eternal Life.
Jesus knows too that I would never sing to ask Him to take me, and plant my feet on any higher grounds- that is if ‘ higher grounds’ were taken literally because I so cannot trade the comfort of the safe haven I have found on floors for any heights in this world- literally speaking, puhleez!
Recently, I saw myself running carefree to meet up with a deadline along a Ulysses huge overhead bridge at Abuja, with all the speeding vehicles underneath. So I was taken aback.
What had changed in me?
I realized that my phobia, (the fears behind my fears) were all gone. Then, I was not afraid of the heights but I was afraid of falling and crashing. I was not afraid of depths but I was simply afraid of falling and getting lost in the deep.
So what or who took away the fears behind my fears?
I’d say that only Love did.
I found Love and everything about me changed. The comfort and assurance in the love of my Father in Christ Jesus reassures me that He would never leave me by myself, therefore if I must crash or fall into any deep, then He would fall and crash with me. Thank God that God is safe. Besides, I know that He loves me much more than I love myself. The love of Christ changes us, and it has renewed my mind, and transformed me.
“And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge -that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God”- Ephesians 4: 17b-19( NIV).
Because perfect love casts out all fears- including the fears behind the fears.