The sight his eyes met when he moved his head in favour of the shadow behind the open window was one he’d always wished would last for eternity. It reminded him of all the dreams he had clung to as a little boy and how time has orchestrated his total distancing from his hopes.

The lush vegetation quietly dancing to the rhythm of the soft wind called to mind how at ease he had always been even when it was as though life was beating an unknown drum beat for him to dance to.

He had decided to wear insensitivity as his armour against the hurts that people were bound to shoot him with, with and without cause. He never assumed that this new found harbour of solace, the one he had built would be to his own undoing. He had tried as much as possible to convince himself that it has never actually been his fault that he got drenched in the rain of despair but the more he tried to erect an edifice of alibi, the more he saw his shortcomings. It wasn’t as though anyone had come with the mindset of getting his heart broken like a glass that slips from one’s hand but how it normally ends up turned him from a child full of vigour to one who has over a quarter of his days spent in despondency. He could not get his eyes off the lawn where the starlings busied themselves jumping from the hibiscus flowers that served as the boundary and perhaps eat the insects that came for a feast on the nectars. He could not place himself in the story written right before his eyes. He was like the insects that troubles had made it’s assignment to destroy. He looked at the starlings and saw more of his old self (though he never really got involved in destroying others). That was how his life had been a few years ago.

He had been the paragon of cheerfulness and revelry until the thought to free himself of all that really mattered to him grew as tall as the Iroko. Loneliness became a thing to give a warm embrace, at least to run away from the never ending debacle that people brought to his heart.

He tried to convince himself that no one was worth living for and if need for counsel arises, he could always get involved in emotional whoring to relieve his chest  of his burden, though he would be reticent. At least, that would be safer than letting a foe hiding in your skin as friend divulge your secrets to enemies you already know.

He could see his life at the brink of getting shattered. The solace he had ran to finally turned to an enemy bent on turning him to a man marked with the kind of insanity only solitude could offer.

He would never admit his plight. He swallowed his pains and fears hard although deep within he knew he could have asked for help from the master but his ego never allowed him.

He was the pharisee that was blind but never admitted to Jesus that he may have sight. He died blind.

John 9:35-41
Jesus heard that they had put him out, and meeting him He said, Do you believe in and adhere to the Son of Man or the Son of God?

He answered, Who is He, Sir? Tell me, that I may believe in and adhere to Him.

Jesus said to him, You have seen Him; [in fact] He is talking to you right now.

He called out, Lord, I believe! [I rely on, I trust, I cleave to You!] And he worshiped Him.

Then Jesus said, I came into this world for judgment [as a Separator, in order that there may be  separation between those who believe on Me and those who reject Me], to make the sightless see and to make those who see become blind.

Some Pharisees who were near, hearing this remark, said to Him, Are we also blind?

Jesus said to them, If you were blind, you would have no sin; but because you now claim to have sight, your sin remains. [If you were blind, you would not be guilty of sin; but because you insist, We do see clearly, you are unable to escape your guilt.]

Everyday Jesus will only help if you allow him…

JOSHUA 1

“There shall not any man be able to stand before you all the days of your life. I will be with you: I will not fail you, nor forsake you”.

Verse 8 tells us that meditating on God’s word is a perquisite for keeping it and living it, which in turn insures a life of prosperity and good success. This is very important to understand as peter tells us in 2nd Peter 1:3 that God’s divine power has given unto Us all things that pertain unto life and godliness, which means that everything we need to live well here on earth and the wherewithal to live a life pleasing to God has been made available to us through the power of God. But then that verse didn’t end there: it specified that there precious promises can be accessed only through the knowledge of him that has called us to glory and goodness.
This goes to say that without knowledge of the owner of the divine power, we may have a tough time laying hold on the wonderful things so promised. This is where verse 8 of Joshua 1 comes to play: if you want to know God, go to his word.

Look at it this way; if for instance you wanted to know something about a man who lived a long time ago, say, Aristotle, you  would have to source materials and read a whole lot about him and the works he had written. It is about the same thing.
Remember that Jesus is the word made flesh, and he is God as well. So if you really want to know God, bury your head in his word, meditate on it night and day, until it is written on the walls of yours heart. Do this until his word comes alive in your spirit; for God’s word is spirit and life: as he lives, so does his word. They are no ordinary words of Man’s wisdom, but are living words that have the capacity to turn a man’s life around.

As you do this, your mind is renewed, and your life is freshened, everyday. It gets to a point where you open your mouth and the word comes out. Words that are spirit and life, just as Jesus’ words were: Living words.
At this point, you will not have to go to the mountain to get thin for several days to get the word to work for you (that is not even the purpose for fasting, in the first place.). The word will always work for you, because you know the word, and are living word.

As Jesus says “you shall know the truth, and the truth (you know) will set you free”.

It is the word you know beyond every doubt that sets you free. If it’s not alive in your spirit, if it’s not in your heart, it remains latent. For it’s the word that goes forth that works: the bible says that you shall have what you say. You cannot say what you don’t know. Know the word, know God, speak the word, speak as God.