More than any other girl I have ever laid my eyes on, there was something so different about this particular one.
The attraction was so much but I assure you it was not the beauty. This one felt like it reflected from my inside, a split image of what my missing rib would feel like, so all defenses were gone; I got close and we started spending time, with time I got so used to her and then gave all my heart-in, perhaps my first mistake because that was where my hurting began and it was more than I could take.
I came to visit her on one occasion and discovered she had something I clearly recognized belonged to a one time friend of mine, in her bedroom. The fact that she not only denied but also blamed me for no good reasons when I tried to confront her seemed less disheartening to the choice she made when she told me she just chose him against me.
See that is just the beginning of my story, but I loved this girl so much at the time that all she did really hurt, but I could neither get close nor let go, so I just watched from a distance hoping the dude would slip up and then I could show her just how much a mistake she had been making. Years passed and I still tried baking cakes to remember our anniversaries and on one of those days, I cried so much I almost drowned in my own tears so I promised myself never to hurt that much again.
Being the smartest guy alive, I started on a perfect plan to win her back.
The more apart we were though, the stronger her bond with the other guy who was so shameless and annoying, he treated her like filth and not like the queen she was but always had a way to lure her on with lies, well I was always sincere, poor me. See I am not taking this personal but I know him well enough; he is just doing this to get to me and it is working. He was my friend and he knows how much I love and cherish her.
Hold on, if at this point you have not realized that she is to blame or you are insisting that I have not suffered enough, you should go back and read between the lines, I have had to narrate this story of heart break and this girl still complains that I do not understand her decisions, well I guess I am that dumb.
Do not judge me, but I got close to a friend of hers who I told to help in a way, return her friend’s heart back to me. Do not guess, she also went dark side and her own story even seemed worse than that my friend who snatched the only person I would ever love from me. This girl actually went ahead to connive with my friend to keep the love of my life bound in that stupid relationship.
I soon realized that it seemed somewhat of a thousand years in my eyes as I watched the days go by so I made a decision to go all in, if I would fight, cheat or even die in the process I was going to get her back.
You want to know if it went right. #coughs# okay I would explain and then leave you to decide if it worked or not.
We actually got engaged, stay with me, got married and I thought that was it, I won in the end. Then something came up, I had to leave her to go abroad, build a house and then I can come and get her so she would come join me. Before you say I left too soon and judge me, I actually left her with all she would ever need, and thank God for communication, we found a way to always stay in contact. I just wanted to take her to a place where I would have her all to myself.
Now the heart break, so great it grates my whole being when I think about it. Call me obsessed but I also left cameras in all places to know how she is doing, so no hurt can come to her…. But the things I see, the things I see flows from diverse ill habits and adultery from one day to another, do you want to guess who she was sleeping around with?
Well she is not always the worst kind of girl anyways from my own observations, I have seen her get really determined to keep herself in our relationship, but then it is either her friend comes in again or she just slides back to her former lover forgetting she was married.
I desire all of her, please do not judge her because you do not have the right, I am the one she has been hurting, my father even got to know about all I have been going through, I am done with my preparations but I do not know how I can bring her to my father now that he is not pleased with her ways, I know He would ask me how we were doing and I never lie.
I would go soon and I hope she would even be faithful when I arrive, this story would not be well told even if it was sang by two people in a duet, so I write to you from outside earth, I know my girl is not wicked, I love her, I just wish she would stop feeling insecure and remain with me, realize I am coming back, that is all I want, to have her all to myself. My own missing rib, my own image, but now I see her through broken mirrors, it hurts, and it hurts badly, with tears in my eyes, blood on my palms, forgiveness in my heart…. Since you have so much neglected my voice, now I have decided to write to you instead….. I am just an oracle and the narrator is my master, so this is most likely what His relationship story with you would be, if Christ was a poet.
By Njoku Uchechi
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WHaT is LOVE?
Most of us would say that you love someone when their happiness is very important to you, so that you behave in a kind and caring way towards them Or you feel romantically or sexually attracted to them, and they are very important to you.
But what really is love?
God is love. And love is God’s unconditional positive regard towards us. According to John 3:16. God had great love for the inhabitants of the world (humans) that he gave his only son for all our sins to be washed away, that we might not perish but have everlasting life. And this can only happen if we believe in him.
The love of God brings everlasting life and this everlasting life is abundant for every single person that exist on earth. You were created to worship God. He loves you.
When you go within, you know that your core (your very being) is made fully of love. This is God’s love. So pure and genuine. And all we can do is share that love with ourselves and others.
The bible says in the book of John 15:9-14 that the same way God the Father loves us, is the same way that Jesus loves us and he wants us to continue in this love by keeping his commandments and abiding in his love. In doing this, the joy of the Lord would remain in you and your joy would be full.
This is the commandment Jesus gave before leaving earth, that we should love one another as he loved us. There’s no greater love that a man can have than to lay down he’s own life for his friends. And he ends it by saying that we are only his friends if we do whatsoever he commands us to.
What kind of love do you have for your friends? Do you know Jesus and have you told your friends about him? Do so today and you will see a great transformation in you life.
By GRACE ENO-OBONG EGBO-EGBO
A CALL TO RULE!
You are what satan has always wanted to be, to be a ruler. Satan was sent parking out of heaven because of this power tussle. He came to earth thinking he (satan) would rule in the earth. But God made man to rule in the earth over everything, satan inclusive. This made satan mad at man, and deceived man out of man’s divine position, and became the god of this world and started controlling man. But thanks to our loving God that has restored us to this position again and made us far better than we were in the first Adam. Anyway this is only so in Christ Jesus, who is the second and the last Adam.
So, get this clear, no matter who you are, if you have not accepted the Lord Jesus Christ as your Saviour, you are certainly under the rule of the devil, whether directly or indirectly. And please, don’t ask the question of why Jesus. The Creator of heaven and earth, including you, decided it to be that way. So, you had better abide by that. You may not anyway, if you are the creator of yourself. I hope also that you will be able to defend yourself before God on the day He unleashes His wrath upon everyone who didn’t accept Jesus Christ as their Saviour, according to His design.
Be wise!
by
Adebayo Funmi
FLAMES OF REVIVAL
Its another season in the history of mankind when the thing that really matter have been relegated to the abyss of oblivion.When men that once stood for the truth have shriveled into constructed compromise.When the world is in the most need of truth and spiritual transformation.When integrity of the HUMAN PERSON has been murdered on the soil of liberalism.The ashes of past revivals have been mockingly cleared by the youths of our time with such disgracing complacency that they care not for fresh woods and BLAZING fire of the Holy Spirit. I write not to unbelievers who have seen no light yet but still grope in the void of sinfulness, for how pertinent is the case of the patient whose doctor is sick.I write rather to the thousands of cold hearted Christians who read this now. Continue reading
Happy 2013
well it sure is a new year people and hey you can expect as many surprises on this forum cos far above your expectations God will help us do. Expect new authors, articles, POEMS, quotes(a little bit more regular this time) short stories, jokes and so much more. Hey 2013 is sure to be a great year and to inspire into greatness is our solemn promise and goal. So help us God. See ya real soon
Ezeonyeka Godswill
Editor
CHRISTMAS SPECIAL – WHO IS JESUS TO ME
Who is Jesus to me you ask? Kind of a funny question. Of course I know its serious but what kind of answer would be appropriate, would contain all my heart longs to say. I know it’s ambiguous but first of all I would like to say WOW. Funny right, I get the fact that I can’t simply say in a word or two who Jesus is to me or how much He means to me but is it because I’m at a lack of proper words to use or is it because I don’t really know what to say, maybe I don’t really know who He is. Puzzling…
Okay let me try again. Jesus, this Jesus is the man I’ve read about in the bible, a hero prophesied about, waited for and didn’t show up in the Old Testament. He in the fulfillment of time as the bible says showed up in the New Testament, a marvel indeed. Although kinda weird to the people of that time, He altered the course of the world before, present and even defied the laws science would one day present. His fame spread far and wide and though He led quite a short yet eventful life, His teachings and Spirit, His miracles and lifestyle has left the world a totally different place. He is the same one known to be the SON OF GOD; but wait that’s not who He is to me. Those are just some truths you already may have come to know.
Just as the world is carefully divided into seven continents, nations spread far and wide, thousands of towns and cities with millions of languages similar and the different and amazingly billions of characters, individualities and yes opinions of whom Jesus is.. but you see I can’t speak for all these people whether saved or not see Jesus but I can speak for myself, I can say how I feel, what I think, the truth I’m sure I know and though ambiguous I still think is impendent I figure out, you figure out who this Jesus is to you.
You see Jesus is the voice that spoke to me when I went wrong as a boy. Jesus was the one who consoled me when no one knew deep down I was hurting. Jesus was the one who drew me to His word as a little boy, teaching and tailoring my life into His masterpiece. Jesus was the one who called out to me every Sunday morning relentlessly until my heart answered to a call to love, light and life. Jesus was the one who had me saved and had to watch while I nailed Him time and again to the cross. Jesus was the one who wept in my insides when I opened my eyes to pornography, to lust, till the very reason my soul could find no peace in God. Jesus, this same Jesus is the one who forgave me all my sins in His mercy but had to repeat the process over and over again because I wouldn’t just stand firm in the victory he had won for me. Yet He kept forgiving me even pleaded my cause at the father’s feet. When my heart was lost in darkness and my conscience sealed as if forever, Jesus was the voice that called out to me still, renewing my once lost love, reinstating me, giving me a life testimony no, a love testimony. all my life I’ve known Him to be my healer cos though He does heal my body, the healing He provides my soul as He does so many others is so sure its value remains eternal. He healed my heart so well that I think it’s new. well it has to be cause though I should feel hurt, I feel joy and where resentment should abide in abundance I find acceptance, I find love, I find Him yes I find Jesus there.
This Jesus is the one who taught me to be strong, to be a man, not the kind that had to be proved with every passing minute NO! He taught me to be a man confident and assured, a man who knows that responsibility is his to bear man without fear but with courage on nothing but the living and true God. This same Jesus was the one who taught me to respect the woman even as He does the Church. so I don’t stay away but just close enough to be a friend and as at when due a lover, a companion, a husband.
I’ve said quite much but permit me to say, this Jesus was the one who saw me in my room alone masturbating, hopelessly loosing the joy of my salvation but he didn’t leave in disgust. He stayed there to caution me, close enough to forgive me when I cried out. This same Jesus saw me struggling and He called His servants together, rallied around to raise an army just for my sake, so that I may still see He loves me and would save me at any cost. This same Jesus rejoiced with me when I came to the realization of the fact that of a truth it is not by works but surprisingly by His own mercy cos He lived, He died, He conquered sin for my sake so I would never struggle cos he knew if I did I would fail. He freed me even before I was born and on that dark September night when I realized this, He smiled with me rejoiced with me for I was once lost but now am found.
You see, this Jesus will be the one I would see when it’s all been said and done. He will stand there and speak for me before the father; He would comfort me of all the wounds and scars the world had to offer. He would love me and forever keep me at His side in His love and light.
Now about the question you asked here’s a clue about what I think of Jesus or as you say ‘who He is to me’. Jesus is my love, my saviour, my inspiration, my God. He is the reason I sing, I live. He is the life in me that makes me smile. He is so many things to me and here’s some more, just kidding. But seriously if I were to use a sentence to say who Jesus is to me, I would say He is my love and He lives inside of me.
by
Ezeonyeka Godswill
WHEN NOBODY UNDERSTANDS YOU
Have you ever been; in a stance when it seems no one understands you? For every action you take, someone seems to find a fault. When you want to be calm and sober, people think something is getting at your nerves and getting you worried. Or maybe You are depressed, and when finally you resolve to laugh and chat with other folks, you suddenly turn to see a sea of frowned faces gazing at you, trying to tell you by their expression, that you are too loose and liberal.
In addition, the sense of guilt comes to your heart. If you are not careful, you would think to frown is spirituality. Then you quit your laughter and happy mood and feign sobriety to the imprisonment of your emotions.
it won’t be long before you realize that everybody wants you to be like them or maybe give you prescriptions of how they think life should be lived, and when you try to please everybody you do not only displease yourself but you will be overwhelmed at the ounces of confusion that sets into your world.
When everybody seems not to understand you, you should know that Jesus does, because there is no friend like him. Every good temperament can accommodate and enjoy the life of Christ. We all have our individual differences and idiosyncrasies’ but Christ can find our expressions through our temperaments if only we should submit our hearts to Him.
Have you ever sought for the correct words to say to someone who seems to misunderstand you? You desperately wished “if only he could understand what I’m saying” or maybe you had thought: “I’d only they understand my plight”
The truth is that, we are all human, we are not angels, but even angels have differences, if not, we would not recognize and identify them when we meet them in heaven.
Maybe you have not also realized that you misunderstand people sometimes, we may not understand people’s words or actions always, especially when we cannot take a glimpse of things from their own perspective. Whenever you try to make people understand and they seem not to, you should just commit it to the Lord in prayer.
Jesus understood the fears of Peter even when He denied Him; He understood the weakness of Paul. That was why he made his grace sufficient for him. He understood the stance of Mary Magdalene even when all the Jews had condemned her, but when the Lord understands our failures and weaknesses, He only does so to make us stronger and better and not just to tolerate us. You may have been astonished when you realized that actually, nobody sees things just the same way you do. That is because God does not want us to act and understand alike, He only wants us to blend our actions and apply our varied understanding for the utmost pleasure of his heart.
The next time someone or some people misunderstands you, turn to God in prayer, with a sober heart and ensure you have his approval. If then you’ve secured God’s approval over your action or utterance, then tell God about the misunderstanding, but if God convicts you, then be humble enough to apologize to the folks you’ve hurt. Nevertheless, one thing should be clear to you. It is normal on earth for you to be misunderstood. However, it has never been heard of anybody being misunderstood in heaven. That is why you should strive together, to get to where everything is plane, pure and lovely. However, as you still put on the flesh, you should learn to accommodate misunderstandings.
By
Agbaroji Chimemeremeze.
WHEN YOU HAVE ALL AND POSSES A FEW
Life is full of complements; no body lacks everything entirely and nobody has everything entirely. We only find out soon how much we need the other folk, amidst all the things we have known we can do on our own.
And how astonishing it is for us to stumble into the realization that most people, much more than we know need us around to survive, not necessarily to continue living but to survive the hurts that try to bleach life and make it a world of depression instead of satisfaction and fulfillment with a hope anchored on eternity with Christ.
Most times God has punctured my pride! When I assume the frame of a peacock in my heart thinking, I have all I ever wanted. I look around me and see the souls that just need my company to retain smile on their faces-Those who have carved me with gold in their hearts, many more who have placed much value on my utterances even when I say things that do not make sense, they ensure that I am retained in that lofty position in their heart. I had then come to realize this; my worth is a little less if I take it upon my heart that I have everything I should have and only need to dispense the much virtues that I have convinced myself I should have in abundance and do not actually need anything from anybody.
When we think we have it all, we are not only surprised when we realize that we only have an iota of the many good things God has given to mankind, but if we are not careful, our astonishment can degenerate into jealousy much faster than we think we can control our thoughts. Then, the best way to have all, and indeed then only way, is to see others as a part of you and you as a part of others. This are not just complementarities, it is a relationship which one assumes to have all the good things he wants, yet, he possessed just but a few of it and only an iota proceed from him.
We enjoy the things we made up our mind to enjoy. Moreover, that includes enjoying the presence of God. When we’ve come to realize that God did not put all his treasures in any man aside Christ, but even in Christ we do not altogether possess all we need until we see Christ giving us all He possesses through direct communion with Him and secondly by our relationship with other people. We often think Christ would give us applause if we tell Him that we do not have need of our fellow man because we have him. Maybe He will just smile and shake his head in pity, for a any man who reasons this has not seen the treasures of Christ that exude from others. When we realize that in Christ we can enjoy all things, both the things we have directly in our possession and the ones we can access in others; then we will see that even that little fellow that sits besides us during sermon, is as important to us as the preacher. For life can be boring if you fail to see Christ in your brother or sister.
Failure to see this usually degenerates to depression and boredom in our walk with God. Nevertheless, the extent we can see Christ in other people and that we can access without envy, the treasures of Christ made available to us in others, is dependent upon our understanding of Christ in relation to the folks around us.
We may have asked, if all we need is Christ, why then did God give us all these things with Christ? Is Christ not just enough for us? Well, the things God gave us with Christ are actually all in Christ. Nevertheless, God gave us all things with Christ so that in having Christ we would see all things in him. However, a man who possesses only the physical/material aspect of these things with Christ Himself only has a shadow of the real thing. Shadows are never celebrated. Only substances are. We can live gracefully if we see all that God has given us in Christ in other people. Nobody ever enjoys the things he possesses without envy of the things he does not possess until he discovers that the things he does not possess are actually part of his belongings, if he learns to enjoy it as though they were his.[1 Cor. 3:21]
by
Agbaroji Chimeremeze



