RECLAIMING MY CONFIDENCE

Drowning in the ocean of mediocrity,
I felt i never had an ability;
It all seems like a disease in my mentallity,
That is even proclaiming my timidity;
It began as a feeling…
then a thought…
and it finally became my doom,
Thereby enclosing me in a sad room;
I just wanted to be free from this mindset,
but I felt I would still go down just like sunset

Truthfully, it was as if my mind slapped me,
Cause I couldn’t visualize any scene of greatness
I felt jinxed!
I began to realize that my problem wasn’t really with mediocrity,
It was with the word”confidence” in which i had lost in my own ability
I seem to believe that I can’t fly,
Possibly because I have no wing of self confidence;
I became sad, which made me feel bad
Even when I should be glad
However, I concluded that I don’t really have to feel confident
To actually be confident!
I can rise to the peak of greatness
If only I practice being confident…

By
Ebisike Kenneth

what is yOuR NAME?

“What is your name?”
“You mean… my name?”

I could close my eyes in a quick drift in to my spirit to give you an answer….

My name is who I am!
It is not merely a form of identification;
No! It is an embodiment of my whole being
It does not only describe my features
It gives you a description of my origin.
It does not just qualify me as a creature
It introduces you to my creator.
It does not just say I am human
It gives you my meaning.

It is not just about a phase of my life
It is the whole book of my life, as it is written of me.
It is not just about my past, present of future
It is about them three
It is not just, what I can become
It is what I am.
My name is I and I am my name!
You can see it in my eyes…

Just like scientists and their laws
My name and my creator are connected.
I am his product and bear his trademark.
My name is the declaration for the delectation of my creator.
My name is the bedrock of the loss of me…
Remember that I am still thinking of the right answer to your question.
So next time, ask me of my birth name instead of MY NAME.
My birth name could just be a word, but my NAME is something more.

“I am the child of the only living God who created heaven and earth, and who lives forever more.”

Now, that is my name.

By
Ebisike Amarachi

fRoM the FALL…

Why must I continue like this?
When He’s actually saved me like He promised
Cos I won’t just say no to my sinful needs
So the victory He won me
Makes no real difference
Cos with every passing day I abuse his presence
Loose His essence and continually descend
Cos I won’t condescend to say no to my flesh

Of course if I pray He would forgive me
But will I forever continue like this?
Will my story be falling and rising in brief
And will His mercy forever speak for me?
So here’s what I’m gonna do
I’m not gonna just confess my sins like I do
But I’m gonna rededicate my life too
And I’m gonna ask for help, YES, help from you Lord
To say no; No to my sinful needs

Although I can’t seem to stop myself
Truth is, I love you Lord. I really do
True to my human nature I love with reasons though too numerous to mention
But you, you just keep on loving me
Without any worthy reason or condition
And yet I am very confident of the fact that no matter the ups and downs
You’ll never let me down

Without you I am an empty vessel a sounding cymbal
Without you I am sure to lose my way again
Without you I am proven guilty, a perpetual slave to my flesh’s demand
Without you I cant say no to my sinful needs
But no matter how resolute I claim to be
I am sure to fail condemned to my final end, death
So here’s what I’m gonna do, I will trust and obey
And together with you Lord
Make this decision to say no
Cos without you I am nothing

By
Ezeonyeka Godswill

In the blink of an eye….

How sad it is to think
That all we ever wanted in this life
Could be taken away in the blink of an eye
That all we worked so hard for pound by pound
Could in a moment, be nowhere found
That everything, everyone who made living worth it
Could in an instant, be lost and gone forever
In our grief we all but wonder

What a misery it is to live
In pure joy soon to cease
In love doomed for tears from a broken heart bleed
In peace never existing
In life lived towards a horrid decent
Down death’s dreadful fork-end
In time spent with no forever after assurance

If in this fallacy we call existence
We all but choose to dance the rhythm, enjoying the present
Though in the depths of our hearts the knowledge remains
Clear as crystal and we agree it’s real and evident
Yet we lead our lives neglecting its essence
Then is it all worth it, does it all make sense
That any minute from now could be the end

This fact we all have to accept
But the knowledge of its truth we may all but reject
Neglecting the choice before us set
Loosing mastery of this mystery we remain in misery
The irony!
But every day is laid before us a chance at it
The truth behind true life forever lived
The only hope we might in this world have still
In Jesus Christ in His blood, His voice and will

To give up and give in
To sit and cry overwhelmed by the reality
Of the vainness of this world we live in
May sound and appear the only option remaining
But a new message I’m preaching
One that echoes through time behind beyond within
Jesus paid the price to give us a chance with him

For the earth is the Lord’s and the fullness thereof
Yet for an apple’s bite we have all sold dominion of this world
With our God given rights lost, untamed evil runs along
But for this cause Jesus left His throne
To give us something better than the vainness life on earth has to offer
A promise a hope a future
A sure eternity worth living for
In the twinkling of an eye
It will all be gone by and by
No matter its worth or by what style
It will forever be lost in time
Beyond the fires this earth provides
Only this one message will stand true if actualized
In your life in your mind its truth realized

In just an instant
You could make that one decision for life
And enjoy a life of righteousness peace and joy what a ride!
In the blinking of an eye
We would be translated to heaven’s aisle
To be forever joined with our Lord the Christ
And with the vainness of time behind
We would see cause to smile
Forever safe in our Savior’s arm
Now that’s the Life!
By
Ezeonyeka Godswill

THE DAY MY PAST CAME KNOCKING

3 brothers one coming after the other
Past, present and future after one comes another
I had my present with me my future awaiting its turn
I had no business with the past, he was gone and out
But one day I had an august visitor
Knock knock… who’s there? I asked
Just me replied he, your old friend past
My blood ran cold, thinking back, he hadn’t been the best for me, my past had given much pain and sorrow
I had been ashamed of him, tried forgetting him
Concentrating on my present as I earnestly prayed for my future
But he kept on knocking, with his sugar-coated tongue he reminded me of what we both shared
I was tempted, my present encouraged me to open the door
Betraying me and my future who continued pleading that I do not

Its only for a moment I said,
So I opened the door, smiling broadly he walked in and took over my heart
Pushing away the present, he let me fall back in those acts I had so enjoyed
Yes I opened the door and enjoy I did
Losing myself in my past I gave myself to him
Taking his hands he took me on a tour to our time down memory lane
Telling me how I missed him and I realized I did so
I walked and I enjoyed the walk, every step brought me deeper and farther away from my present and future calling out to me
Its just for the now I told them
But I did see the past smile behind his teeth
And I took the bait. Hook line and sinker
Till one moment turned into a habit
Hand in hand we kept on descending
Suddenly…

I was lost, alone and afraid
I called out for Him but got no answer
Turning back I realized the present and future were no longer there
Cos they left, they were gone , leaving me empty
I realized I lost the present and future the day my past came knocking and I let him in…
By
Odimbu Promise Buchi

WITH GOD IN IT…

Shhhh!!!
And the Lord God breathed into his nostrils
And he became a living soul
And that rhythm would continue till the day he lay motionless and cold
Everyday we wake to the morning sun
Breathing the breathe He brought us
Leading the life He lent us
Yet with our mouths we confess
That we the manifestation of His masterpiece
Is normal, ordinary, common?
Well yes!
That’s what we are
Normal, natural, ordinary
But when God steps in to the picture to make our heart His habitation
Then the para super extra part of us gains life
Yes life
And what great potential we would realize even in this life
Yeah I see the disbelief behind the sneer
And who am I to judge if I too was once there
Well here’s sufficient proof as to the truth
The bible might just be a book
But with God in it
It stands the greatest most complete book on history’s hook
The boy David was just a shepherd boy
But with God in him
He became the greatest king Israel will ever know
Gideon should have been the lowliest of men
But when God stepped into the picture
He won ridiculous battles and ruled even the highest of men
Mary could have been just another Israelite virgin
But with God in her womb to mature
The world will forever remember her name at Christmas
Samuel should have been some ordinary altar boy
But from the day God called his name
He became a worthy priest, he anointed kings and a great prophet he was
Rahab could settle for being a prostitute
But when God chanced upon her home
She saved her whole family inserting her name in the family line of Jesus Christ
Esther could as well remain the favored queen
But with God in her words and heart
She saved her nation from extinction
Joseph could have ended up as Potiphar’s chief servant
But with God in his decisions
He somehow made it to the throne as prime minister
The Samaritan woman had some pretty wrong logic
But an encounter with God
Made her one great evangelist storied of in the bible
Of course you may worth nothing
But if you let God in
You could be greater than the man in your dreams
Tomorrow may be the dawn of another year
But with God in it
Its sure to be the greatest you’re yet to experience
Little is much when God is involved
The truth remains simplistic
I hope you do get it

Here’s what I really wanna say
With God in it
Even impossible reads I’m possible
This might be just another poem, well great!
But with God in it
It could bring about the change your heart desires, better!
So don’t you be quick to confess as to your inabilities and inadequacies
Just let God in
and experience what it feels to be a KING!

By
Ezeonyeka Godswill O.

HAPPINESS IS A CHILD.

Remember that nursery rhyme..
‘We are H.A.P.P.Y. (X2). We know we are! We are sure we are! We are H.A.P.P.Y. Happy!
Lols.

And indeed, they are happy! With eyes so bright and free of fright
So full of hope and devoid of a wandering mope.
Feet swift to dance and bounce
Caring less of the attention they announce
Hands so free to wave and clap
Giving off little sweet noises
They really don’t care if the sound is organised or nonsense
All that matters is that moment of fun and ecstasy
And yes! They have these moments in abundance. Happiness is a child… It is the embodiment of little giggles and broad smiles
It is being inquisitive and yet not reasoning everything
It is being bold to show your emotions without masking them in deception
It is waking up the next morning without remembering who flogged you last night
It is laughing at yourself when you give out a loud fart without feeling embarrassed
It is worrying about nothing
Forgiving your offenders when they give you biscuits and cookies

Happiness is a child… It is going to bed without an angry thought or venom against someone
It is believing that there will always be daily provision of cookies for you without bothering your mind about its source. Happiness is a child… And that child is inside of you!
The master admonished us in Luke18:17
Regardless of your age,if you are to enter the kingdom of God
You need to become like little children
Not just children
BUT THE LITTLE ONES…
Get rid of the uptight know-it-all adult
That is masking the beauty of the little angel within you… Be happy! Be a child!

By
Ebisike Amarachi

HIS (perfect) WILL

Our father(check)
Who art in heaven(check)
Hallowed be thy name(check)
Thy kingdom come(check)….
Thy will be done, or my will will simply suffice?….
I believe we have all prayed this prayer saying its our Lord’s but in reality its just us trying to fulfill all righteousness! I heard that every Christian was once unrighteous and is redeemed by a God whose name is highly esteemed above every other, making every Christian His righteousness, meaning He already fulfilled all righteousness, so a Christian can also be called His righteousness! Now if righteousness is a way of life, then our whole ways in life should be directed by the one who fulfilled all righteousness in the first place.
Yeah you can get it freely and as priceless as the word GRACE. But no; we shunt the perfect will of a perfect God that not only created us but also re-instated us when we willingly sold out and went dark side,spinning and getting stuck in webs like spiddy, not to mention the amount of times He re-sainted us after we all fell, well I DID!!!
I see you get angry and deeply frustrated when your cell phone hangs, malfunctions or goes off and then comes back on in the middle of an important operation, but you didn’t create it. God created man with a perfect plan but most times you hang in your depression, malfunction in your emotions and even go off and on deliberately with proper excuses,..for days, months and weekly in your walking with Him, so much that it almost looks as though you are trying to see what He would do when you say
“..well d situation was merely too tempting”
. I never really understood it when the Spirit said that Love suffereth long, till i got to understand that God is LOVE. Cos unlike how I get so angry that I curse at and replace an annoying cell phone purchased with cash, He still blesses and keeps this imperfect me bought and washed by d blood of the lamb.
His will being done on earth, like judgement would start from d church, stop thinking about the building its actually you and I who left but was given a secret number JESUS just to keep in touch, so if He does His will in you and in me, then d world would be automatically transformed, but how is that gonna be?..when i have my set goals and lists of selfish prayers….; God bless me, my friends, my families,…seriously, how many times did you ever hear Christ pray that?..
Let your Kingdom come on earth, should be our major prayer, see. When u seek His kingdom 1st, every other thing shall be added unto u. We fall in a generation where we don’t like the world but they are the first to hear of our problems,call it social media/”ME-THERE”, forgetting we have a father who rules in d heavenly, who not only wants to hear about what we are going through but also has the resources to solve them. Really I’m short of words to say this; how ma heart is but, the master planner didn’t just create a planner like you without a plan, so next time you are saying the Lord a prayer, don’t be the reason His expectations have not reached the sons of men!

And people, if you don’t know where to start or a bit scared what His will is, I would advice you look in the bible.

by
Njoku Uchechi