I have never been comfortable with the idea of being just fine…

Of putting on plastic smiles and shaded eyes that hide the painful truth that this is the life I am travailing through

Of repeatedly saying fine to this one question to dam the waters of pain trying to burst its way through the facade, the false ads, damn it all to hell, these three word courtesy is hell to my ears.

Nobody cares, nobody listens, nobody’s there, why break a glisten? Listen!

Listen to my heart giving my ribs a beating and hear my eyes scream with every pound and every pound just in time to remind me, I’m still alive, still alone, my face still with that smile and the world still idly moving along.

Break in, break in to my thoughts and tell me its going to be okay, that I can take these turns, that I can fight these wars, that I can act all I want and you will still know when all I just need is a hug.

I know it is dark around you too but I hear a candle looses nothing in lighting another…

Just look around you I’m there, reach for me, I am near, you could be my hakuna matata, if you would only look beyond what you see, you could be my hakuna matata if you would only see beyond my mascara.

You know you are right about me, I’m just a selfish, ignorant cry baby with a low self esteem complex but if the world was filled with only people like you, is that all I’d ever be?

You say God is love but how am I to believe this if you don’t let me see Him in you, if you don’t let me see His love through you?

So yes I am not fine, don’t be asking me how I am if you are not prepared to listen for the truth through my lips or otherwise. Just know this, you might be my last chance at seeing the light. I just hope I don’t die in the dark. I just hope I don’t die in the dark!


By Ezeonyeka Godswill

A good time as any…

Permit me to sound like an old man for a bit…

Young-uns where y’all at!
This is for you

I don’t know about you but I find myself wondering when I see my fellow youths and teenagers doing absolutely nothing as compared to who they could be and what they could be doing. I wonder why we claim YOLO all over the place yet we pack all our mistakes into our youthful days and leave the big stuff for later. Whoever has lied to my generation!

I too believe that all we truly have is the present (no puns intended), I too believe we should live our youthful days to their full but I am also conscious of what content they are filled with.

I mean, why can I not start making big decisions now, why can’t I start making impact now? Whoever said I cannot be wise while the hair on my head have not yet fallen grey? Whatever is stopping me from investing in my future, from planting my feet in the sands of time now? Like, would it really hurt if I decided to start being responsible now?

Why wait?

Seriously it is a mind boggling question!

Do you have a dream, go out there and achieve it. If you are not constructively doing something about that dream now, trust me, whatever stands in your way now, would still be there in the next 10 years, so why not give your fears a serious beating down, now that you have got all that youthful strength and vibe in your bones.

Make big decisions! Now! Don’t wait till you have a past of scars and regrets so that you can say I have been there. Trust me it ain’t worth it. If we all had to make the same mistakes, technology would never have seen the light of day. We learn from the mistakes of others and when we fault from ours as well.

Guys, we have so much to offer the world, so much potential so much light… and what it is even more epic is when we step out of our comfort zones there is space for us all in the sky to shine as stars.

Yes it will take a lot of work
Yes it will mean missing out on some fun
Yes it will not be comfortable
Yes it will hurt real bad sometimes
Yes we will still make mistakes no matter how hard we try
Yes life and those we love will sometimes not be on our side

But if we are truly the greatest generation to have come along, then lets live up to it and be awesome. It has always been in us


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Our State Before

We were sure that our strength would do us no good. Tension kept rising more than it is
currently in the northern parts of Nigeria where the infamous Boko Haram toys with human lives. Our plight was worse; we had no human figure to contend with. It was like fighting the figments of one’s imagination – or better still ,”hallucinating”. The more we tried to fight, the more we saw ourselves losing the battle. We took up anxiety only to discover that worrying helps no man – we found a better game plan: we gave ourselves wholly over to doing according to the whims of our revered thoughts; at least, to enjoy what ever happiness that one can get from this scalding life.

The more we tried to scavenge whatever happiness our hands could mine from the nightmare we called life, the more of ourselves we lost. Our morality turning to the muddled pool of wickedness, yet we swam in it without care. Our eyes lost their sparkles; we became as blind men groping in the dark seeking for the right way to go. . .

But there was no one to help us. Darkness became our home.That’s a funny way of saying that we became comfortable with darkness and shrank back from the glimmers of light that did visit us once in a while. We could see our end yet we felt glamoured and refused to believe it . That was our state before he came and saved us. . .

Before He said that it is finished. . .

We need not f eel sorry anymore but walk in the light He gives us as sons… Sons of light!

“The people that walked in darkness have seen a great light :they that dwell in the land of the shadow of death, upon them hath the light shined.”

Isaiah 9:2


Simeon Chidi