“I never believed that such a sugar-coated tongue could feed me a pack of lies.”
The words kept ringing in my head. “You are nothing, not good enough. You can’t do anything, you are worthless.” These words occupied my subconscious mind. I couldn’t believe it, I had finally broken up with Stanley. A relationship that had gone on for 4 years! Stanley and I met when I was about graduating from secondary school and I thought he would be “the one” ( sigh; childish fantasies). Barely 3 months after we met, we started dating. I was head over heels, the whole ‘butterfly in my tummy’ experience. The relationship went smoothly for about a year and a half then the complaining began. “You don’t do this, you don’t do that, do you want me to go out there and cheat?”, he would threaten. My friends warned me to quit before I got burned but I turned deaf ears.
I should have read the signs, Stanley was a ladies man. He would lie to my face, “they flock around me, I cannot help it”. Ironically, he was the jealous type. He went through my phone regularly and threw tantrums whenever he read friendly text messages from other guys. Things got worse when I began to see other ladies in his house. He would dish out numerous excuses, “she’s my colleague, my friend’s girlfriend, my ex-classmate”. At some point, he even claimed some of them as relations. I was blind or maybe I was just ignorant. I never believed that such a sugar-coated tongue could feed me a pack of lies.
At some point, I thought I was the problem. Maybe I needed to start using more make-up or wearing more fitted dresses, I thought. Poor Me! I was only worrying my pretty little head over a person that didn’t deserve a second of my time. Sadly, I didn’t know this until much later; then it was too late. In my ignorance, I became desperate to save our relationship. Continue reading →
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