THE FADING SCARS OF OUR PAST LIVES

You hid that cut on your face from the gathering of eyes and mouths

Its marks strewn down and across your cheek and chin to mar you

Caused you to bend away, to cover the real you

So you think it is

The struggles and battles and forays for free living left you with it

The fight over what you wanted and what wants yours could be met when

Holding back and dragging through, skirting about jagged edges that bruised you

Badly

That signature need not be shown to be confirmed present

Your concealing it testifies that it is there and that it holds you

So all you are is explained by a scar from your past

Yet, you let it be so

You do not let it heal

But the infection rising from plastered over wounds damages your life

You are sick; your character showcases your sorry state

Your soul’s injury is an agony for lack of being attended

Come now, hide your frame no longer

Let the veil down and let the air of freedom act upon your bruises

Let the coming of plainness be followed by the reaction of truth and time

And the love and mercy of many compassionate embraces

In the place where we are united by a common trait

The scars from our past lives

We give each other our most priced possession

The love that our wounded healer gave us

So that even the near-dead can be loved back to life

So your scars should be seen

The sign that you no longer writhe in pain

And that your healing be made complete if you still do

In the meeting with our scarred savior

CRITIQUE OF PURE NONSENSE

You’re a brilliant mind who can’t get himself around to taking the idea of the Divine

It’s beautiful clothes, adorable baby faces, stunning landscapes, memorable experiences

But not a father in heaven, or anywhere around

That somehow, is uncomfortable dictatorship

The problem must be in the understanding of the heavenly

Of directing courses, of masterminding, and of a feeling heart

Of justice, of reasonableness, of care for the simple things and of the grieving

But He’s not just the sledgehammer-bearing fierceness you spit upon

Except in final impenitence, where you’ve given Him no chance to love you in life

The world collapsing upon heads is a matter for able human hands to wrestle with

He, the Lord divine, has given us this mandate

Don’t you see the point?

You’re a grand-headed philosopher who loves to know much

Of the nature of everything that was, and is, and will ever be

But you will never think that all that is seen is held up by a great grand unseen

Never consider that all is fixed in place by a force intelligent

If you be truthful, you should confess humbly

That your dispute is not a matter of it being implausible

It is the consequence of it that you see as impermissible

What would become of your freedom, your privileges?

You will be at your armchair’s speculation’s best to pronounce life unordered

Do you imply pointless

Try telling that to the hungry, the grieved, the searching

Why not tell them to give up hope instead?

I say that it is not insensitive to provide succor to the sorrowful, the hunting and the haunted

Or to think of what our art, our trade, our investigations and our applications imply

If all finally rounds up to zero

Why create words, when they build up to create an empire of accounts

Expressing longings for eternity too great to suppress

To put down by the desire of fearful humanity

God is true, God is loving, God is worth-giving

God is the reason, our meaning

Life’s definition

That’s all.

LORD OF MERCY

Lord be merciful to us
Our minds, our hearts, our thought
Have conceived the evil seed of arrogance
Have borne for long the fruit of greed
To bear the child of disbelief
We have said in our hearts
Our wisdom surpasses the heights of the mountains
Our knowledge drills beyond the depth of the sea
We have considered the thoughts that are blasphemy
That the divine is all that we cannot be
And strive we did, to become gods
Deities to ourselves our ego, our pride
We believed in our hearts’ deepest corners
That truth was by our own hands fashioned
That our creator was our only imagination
And we were truly masters
We like Babel’s boastful builders balked
At all who had your love as knowledge
All who bore your teachings by heart knowing little but this
That you alone are all-wise
We dismissed for own pleasure

Lord be merciful to us
The things we feel so small before
Attest to what your hands have done
When even in our perceived wisdom are thoughts
Of the sands of the seashore
Of the birds of the air
Of the beasts of the field
Even of ourselves
As merely children of fate’s hand
Not willing to give up our self pride
We know deep in our heart
That you were
You are
And you’ll forever be
But our minds so learned, blinded our sight
We saw so dimly
But now we have but for a few things destroyed ourselves
And what we have left is death crouching at our door

Lord be merciful to us
By your loving hands stretch
Save us from our ego’s dagger’s edge
Catch us from our fateful fall
Forgive our foolish arrogance
Cleanse our pride filled hearts of rot
And in your grace
Curdle us to yourself
Let us be your own
For our hands have devised things
Such as those, seeming so good
That have led us so far from truth
Farther than we have ever wished
All in a search for an alternative
Other than your merciful hands
Lord, in your graciousness
Please be merciful to us!

-Ikenna Nwachukwu

WoRShiP and MEmOrY

There is something that keeps me in its shadows
It picks me from a caught-up dream.
And thrusts me into the midst of a forgotten forest
It sounds with the rivulets that string my mind’s eye with tears.
It thunders with the rushing streams that splits verdant to regions.
Space to explore, to wander, to wonder about.
And with it goes the moody strings of a beautiful violin play.
Gentle flow, rising from the chest of the bearer of emotion,
Of dreams, of era, a time lost in thought.

Beyond history beyond the drab pages of a dense incunabula
It tickles my heart with the rising waves of the oceans.
It blinds in the golden clouds about the crest of a setting sun.
Those rays that strike me from the west
Those waves that weaken my pragmatic frame
They sizzle, dwindle, and descend
Like a mist,
All comes to a moment, a full so tense.
A pregnant stillness
And we wait for the initialized band’s revival

The tap upon shining grey brass
A spark, an explosion, a coming into life.
The force of the wind comes with the drift upon its back.
Like a warrior riding across the sky
Like kept secrets fighting their way into consciousness
In the capturing of a man from the now
The seizure, the transportation, the movement
With the fire in the heart of the player
With the sparks that fly into the skies to light them up
With the illumination that sweeps the expense of our universe
With the joy that covers us descending upon our skin
To envelope our lives and bring us satisfaction

The art of praise is what I describe
Devoid of its intent, it is merry exercise
It lifts us a bit
Complete worship raises us into heavenly heights
To join with creation
To sparkle in one movement
With all, as entirely was made us
And as will soon be restored to
Such remembrance unveils life.
A composition in progress
A point in the webbed question.
A pointer to the answer as it should be.
Experience may evoke pain and be longing
But to healing it must resort
And to purpose original, it must turn
Immersion in worship
In living
In doing
By raised hands
By words spoken
By you.

– Ikenna Nwachukwu